Category Archives: in the spiritual realm

restless equanimity

I wish I could say I spent the time between being prescribed testosterone and actually getting the testosterone in some kind of humble, mindful, contemplative, equanimity.  I didn’t.  I was a walking bag of anxious irritation.  Hey, I’m nothing if not consistent. … Continue reading

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old dog, new tricks

Here we are again at the end of another calendar year.  I feel lucky, as I may have said before, about having two distinct *new years* each year (one Jewish and one secular) that remind me and give me the … Continue reading

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a week or so later

Sigh.  Deep breath.  Boston.  Beantown.  What a week.  The highs and lows of heroism and tragedy, fear and triumph.  Our beloved sports teams did play, didn’t play, and individual players visited victims in hospital beds.  Neil Diamond flew himself here to … Continue reading

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fat and stupid with my hands

I’ve been told, more than once, by my beloved and well-respected therapist that “fat” is not a feeling.  I have a long complicated history with feeling fat and have struggled with anorexia.  And I’ve learned, much to my astonishment, that … Continue reading

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hunter-gatherer?

Why am I always surprised when the concentric circles of Torah are mirrored in  my life?  As I chanted Sh’mini on Saturday, I couldn’t help but recognize that here I was reading this ancient text that talks about the importance … Continue reading

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more words to live by

a blessing for equilibrium by John O’Donohue… if only I could remember this… Like the joy of the sea coming home to shore, May the relief of laughter rinse through your soul. As the wind loves to call things to … Continue reading

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connoisseur of clay feet

Ram Dass warns against being a connoisseur of clay feet – someone who is more aware of and more focused on other people’s foibles than their strengths.  And though I’ve heard him say it lots of times, I don’t think … Continue reading

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mysterious ways

I’ve always called Joita Bubbles, having to do with my dad.  Ever since she was an infant, any time I’d be strongly thinking of my dad, with the specific thought, “man, he would love her”, I would see a bubble … Continue reading

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The melody of memory

I had my piano tuned. Actually I had to have it fixed (Nina snapped off a black key) and tuned. What a difference. Beautiful music, sounding crisp and clear. I’d almost forgotten how good it could feel to sit at … Continue reading

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ardhanarishvara

We went to the St. Louis art museum while visiting Emily’s family for Thanksgiving and I came across this sculpture of Ardhanarishvara.  Even though I have an interest in Hinduism, I’d never come across this particular diety before. Ardhanarishvara is … Continue reading

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