Category Archives: brother’s keeper

brother

A little more than a week into his absence Peter’s number appeared on my phone early on a Saturday morning.  With equal parts dread and relief I answered, expecting to hear his voice.  But it was the tiny mousy voice of a little … Continue reading

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deja vu

It’s like watching a drowning scene in a movie.  Someone falls off (or is pushed off, or jumps off) a ship, and with beautiful and savage blue-ocean surrounding them they bob in and out of sight, sinking below the water, … Continue reading

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mommie dearest

I haven’t had contact with my mother in a dozen years.  Don’t judge me (at least not until you’ve walked the proverbial mile in my shoes).  In that time I have blocked her from my phone, moved several times, changed email carriers … Continue reading

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no good deed

When last I’d written about my brother I believe he’d stopped speaking with me because I wouldn’t consent to being his payee (read that: finance gatekeeper, aka cash concierge).  His silent treatment didn’t last long once I received mail for … Continue reading

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he ain’t heavy

Peter called me while I was on vacation.  I felt guilty as soon as I heard his voice.  I’m not even sure why.  I just did.  Something about me being able to vacation and him, well, him being him.  And he … Continue reading

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brother can you spare a dime… or 50 bucks

Well, I not only saw my brother this week, I took him to an appointment he needed to get to outside the city.  One of our last interactions this winter was after he was paid 20 dollars for shoveling roofs and … Continue reading

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socks

Well, yesterday was my brother’s birthday.  Exactly one year ago that I went looking for him and found him.  On the street.  I have been in contact with him fairly regularly this whole year.  A burden and a blessing.  In that … Continue reading

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missing a brother

I haven’t heard from Peter in several weeks.  We had been talking regularly since I found him in October.  Whether he used a friend’s phone or his Tracfone or sent me a text from the phone of some random stranger he passed by and asked … Continue reading

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moral conundrums and grocery shopping

I’ve noted here many times, several times, too many times, how much I dislike Koans.  I’m no fan of the enigmatic.  I just don’t like sitting with ambiguity.  I like rules I can follow and consequences that make sense.  I … Continue reading

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update on my brother

Two weeks after I saw my brother on his birthday, I found myself driving down Mass Ave after having run errands.  When the GPS told me to turn right onto the Mass Pike, I took it as a suggestion, not … Continue reading

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