Category Archives: brother’s keeper

i scream you scream

I taught Joita “I scream. You scream. We all scream for cake.” when she was little.  For years she thought that was the saying.  She even laughed and corrected someone once.  She’s still a bit miffed at me for doing … Continue reading

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carnival life

It had been several months since I’d last been in touch with my brother Peter.  We go through periods like that.  Especially if he’s *not in a good way* or trying to hide something from me.  Sometimes I just don’t … Continue reading

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brother

A little more than a week into his absence Peter’s number appeared on my phone early on a Saturday morning.  With equal parts dread and relief I answered, expecting to hear his voice.  But it was the tiny mousy voice of a little … Continue reading

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deja vu

It’s like watching a drowning scene in a movie.  Someone falls off (or is pushed off, or jumps off) a ship, and with beautiful and savage blue-ocean surrounding them they bob in and out of sight, sinking below the water, … Continue reading

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mommie dearest

I haven’t had contact with my mother in a dozen years.  Don’t judge me (at least not until you’ve walked the proverbial mile in my shoes).  In that time I have blocked her from my phone, moved several times, changed email carriers … Continue reading

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no good deed

When last I’d written about my brother I believe he’d stopped speaking with me because I wouldn’t consent to being his payee (read that: finance gatekeeper, aka cash concierge).  His silent treatment didn’t last long once I received mail for … Continue reading

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he ain’t heavy

Peter called me while I was on vacation.  I felt guilty as soon as I heard his voice.  I’m not even sure why.  I just did.  Something about me being able to vacation and him, well, him being him.  And he … Continue reading

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brother can you spare a dime… or 50 bucks

Well, I not only saw my brother this week, I took him to an appointment he needed to get to outside the city.  One of our last interactions this winter was after he was paid 20 dollars for shoveling roofs and … Continue reading

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socks

Well, yesterday was my brother’s birthday.  Exactly one year ago that I went looking for him and found him.  On the street.  I have been in contact with him fairly regularly this whole year.  A burden and a blessing.  In that … Continue reading

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missing a brother

I haven’t heard from Peter in several weeks.  We had been talking regularly since I found him in October.  Whether he used a friend’s phone or his Tracfone or sent me a text from the phone of some random stranger he passed by and asked … Continue reading

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